what i wouldn't give to be that free

free*dom:::: the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint:::: exemption from external control, interference, regulation, ect. :::: the power to determine action without restraint::::  the absence of or release  from ties, obligations, ect. :::: the absence of  necessity in choice or action::::

just one of those days.

today was just one of those days were NOTHING  goes right. 

like silly boys breaking hearts. ok well silly boys being big disappointments. coming up with silly excuses as to why they must cancel plans. it always happens.. therefor i should be prepared for a let down but i never am. but through all of life's bad spots i learn something. through this i have learned that you sometimes need to get over yourself and your feelings and put others first. it is hard but i think it is so worth it.  

also  getting in silly arguments wit

h people you love and should respect. i find it hard to give respect when it s not given back. but sometimes no matter what you need to respect your authority. in the end it is worth it.

all in all, at the end of the bad day i realize i need to be thankful for these struggles..why? because compared to other issues in this world. mine are small. instead of crying over  my issues or getting mad i need to pray and thank God that my issues are small and pray that the bigger more important issues in the world be fixed and that God's hand would work through them.

if you read all of that thank you. for *listening* to me ramble. i hope you had/have a great day!

i guess on a.. happier .. note...this quote has been a big inspiration to me. and i had a picture that went with it. so i created this picture..

quote reads: " if i have a desire for something beyond this world, something beyond this world must exist.-c.s lewis"

tfr

xo

jess

hello...it's been a while

since i have been to this lil ol' blog..but i got a comment  from the wonderful and inspiring Kara telling me that i need to blog more so i decided why not. 

two weeks ago i went to a art & design camp at cedarville university. it is an AMAZING small christian college. i went to the camp mainly for the graphic design because studio art is not my...gift..lol but i came away with so much inspiration. i have several paintings bouncing around in my head. so not only did i fall inlove with graphic design i found a love for studio art. it was such a wonderful week. for one of the graphic design sessions we had to go around campus and take pictures of textures. that was really fun. here are some of mine...

and today i got back from a week at the beach! i don't have any pictures or any good ones at least. *i have been in a no inspiration mood recently =[* even though i was VERY  hot and sticky i would like to go back. i really enjoyed being..getting away. it's a great feeling.

my sister is getting married nest weekend. so i will post pictures of that. after all the wedding buzz has died i am going to start...try to start scrapboooking again and maybe get those paintings out of my head and on to canvas!

well happy 4th!!!!

tfr

xo

jess

dear...

dear rain, 

please go away. i need sunshine and warmth for those two things brings me great joy and happiness. and that is something i need right now. go away and come again some other day.  you can come occasionally because you do produced beautiful rain droplets on flowers. and i enjoy that oh so very much. please consider my thoughts..thank you

dear summer,

hurry your slow self up!! i need you now! i want..need the care free feeling that you give. the stress of school and all that is becoming too much for me. i want  *endless* hours of time so i can scrapbook, paint, read, eat popsicles and lay in the warm sunshine. yes that is what i want more than anything. so if you could please. for my sanity. HURRY UP and get here. thank you

jessica

haha if you can't tell i am in great need of summer and no more rain.

xo

hello* to a very random post

first off happy NSD!!! i have a few lo in mind that i am going to attempt to put on paper. i will see what happens.

i got my license yesterday!!! and i entered a set of three sp that i painted into a "competition" my school had.. they won best of show and a superior blue ribbon!!! so yesterday day was good! very good! i am oh so very close to getting a new bigger better camera i can not wait! 

what is something you struggle with? i struggle with putting others first and laying aside my feeling and emotions. i am really trying to work on that. God has been testing me..alot.. but thats ok i need testing. the only way to get past your struggle is to be tested with it so you can become stronger. God is an amazing God there is no doubt about that.

ok well i must get back to cleaning.

tfr

xo

jess